san_luis

Thanks to the people that emailed and commented.

I really appreciate it.

I know that when I come home, everyone is going to think badly of me. At least a little bit.
That upsets me, but this is what I need to do.

I know everyone says I can do it, but I really don't think I can. I don't much want to get into huge details, but I'm not doing well. Mentally or physically.

It sucks that I'm going to be a big disappointment to everyone. That makes me cry a lot more.

I just really think that this is not the time that I'm supposed to be here. I think I made a mistake. And it's worse since everyone will know.

All I do is cry and pray. The praying makes me briefly stop the crying, but it comes back, and I don't feel that I'm supposed to be here now.

I'm sorry to everyone that I've disappointed. Someday I will figure out what I'm supposed to do, and it will work out the way God intends. This will not.

"over my dreams, in my darkest hour"

lacey

Well, I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

I know that I've been obsessed with coming here for so long. And I know that the times I've been here before, I loved it.

It's just so different this time.

I don't like the fact that I don't have anywhere to go. There's no where I can go to be out of the heat. It's terrible.

I will tell some good stories though.

Alex will not take off Carissa's sunglasses. He's as cute as ever and hasn't pooped anywhere that I know off.
Udelia put Leah's watch on this morning very carefully.
The girls stayed up very late listening to and singing along with their cd players. They are good singers...
Adalberto had an English class today. He asked the kids who the president of the United States was, and Daniel told him it was Papa Harold. That made me laugh.
I think that's all I have.
I know this is an amazing oppurtunity, I'm just not cut out for this part of it.
I want to go home.



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"over my dreams and in my darkest hour"
lace

I leave tomorrow!

I'm really excited.

The only thing right now I'm not looking forward to, is when the rest of the group leaves me. That'll be sad.

Look for another update around the first of July.

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This is just a test entry to update for my new Mexico livejournal.

I leave in 16 days.

Part of me is scared out of my mind, but mostly, I'm more excited than I've ever been.

That's all for today, I think.

More before I leave, maybe.